Another dose from 2008...
Hi Everyone,
Well, this morning the doctor said that Sam's temperature is down to 102.5 (normal) without medication. In addition, his blood work is all normal as well (white blood cells up to 10,000, neutrophils up to 3,300, and hematocrit - red blood cells - at 36,000). We will be bringing Sampson home soon, probably today. The doctors are decreasing his fluids to see if he can keep his temperature down. We still won't know if we are out of the woods, but Sam will be much more comfortable at home regardless of what comes next. He's tired of being in the hospital and needs to come home.
A good friend and Reiki master (some of you know Linda Richards) helped me to see that Sampson and I have a co-dependent relationship. Linda said that if I could let Sam go, he might have the energy to keep on living and if I couldn't let him go, he would not. She said that he was fine either way - he feels that he has accomplished what he needs to here and if this was time to go, he was okay with that. We had this conversation last night and I released Sam from all his "obligations" - to get better, to live forever, to stop limping, to be perfect, to stay young, everything. He is free to just take care of himself now.
Whether or not this has anything to do with his temperature stabilization, we will never know. Some of you will think this sounds crazy - some of you will understand. I just wanted to share this because the exercise of releasing Sam led me to understand how much pressure I had unwittingly placed on him and how exhausting that must have been for him. We do this to our pets, spouses, children, parents, and friends all the time, I would imagine. I'm going to continue to work on releasing the animals and people in my life. For their benefit and mine. It does not mean that I don't love them - I do. I'm just releasing them to be themselves instead of what I "want" or "need" them to be. Maybe this can help someone else, as well.
I'll let you know when Sam comes home - maybe it will only be for a short while, maybe for a very long time - that's his choice, now.
Love to everyone,
Jen, Mike, Sam, Abby, the cats, and Emmy
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